A Clear Thought... after drugs...

Good morning, to kx and everyone.

It is 3 45 am, today is 09 April 2011.

Windy, not sure are the stars shining.

Been sick for 3 days,

body burned to 38.2C,

shivering and soaking in the sweat at the same time under the burning sun,

but still managed to finish lecture, do paperwork,

see doc, send laundry, pack food,

before paralysed myself on the bed with drugs...

Now the drug effects is gone, and I could not sleep.

Laying on my bed,

memories keep flashing back,

deep and confusing thoughts playing in mind,

complication of feeling arose and subsided.

What I did?

What I have done?

What I've been doing?

What should I do now...

Seems to have a clue yet not sure am I on the right tract.

Undeniable, I am a slow learner, and...

perhaps of fate OR because of just ''me'' the main factor,

I seem to be fated to learn things in a harder way?!!

Was I too pampered in the past or

it's just toO challenging for me to overcome all these.

It will be a new chapter soon,

hopefully when 1 day I look back, I will just smile and amused myself with,

How silly, childish, indecisive, immature, I was ...

and step forward confidently, wiser towards to future.

Ya, before I am getting too old, forgetful+lazy,

and Permanently Head Damaged myself,

I should jot down some memories here...

sweet, awful, meaningful, happy, sad, etc.

as much I could ...

Bye, kx_4 23am_09 April 2011,

Let's Welcome, the NEW kx,

Mon amour, bonne journee...